"WHEN YOU GO THROUGH DEEP WATERS,
I WILL BE WITH YOU."
ISAIAH 43:2

During the worst crisis of my life, when I was heartbroken, devastated, hopeless, and didn’t want to be alive God chose that moment to lead me to Job 5:8-9  (NIV).  It states, “If I were you, I would appeal to God; I would lay my cause before him. He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted.” 

When I finished reading it, I picked up my Bible and placed it on the floor and stood on it. I told God I was standing on His Word (literally & figuratively) and I proceeded to state my case. I wanted nothing more than to be healed. I’ve suffered with severe and incapacitating pain and fatigue for over 30 years. No, this is not fatigue from doing to much. This is a complete lack of energy in my body leaving me incapacitated and bedridden.  

Then I became housebound for over 4 years due to a rare condition that took away my ability to function in the outside world. I had almost run out of medical options and when I reached rock bottom I knew the only person who could help me was Jesus. I started to repair my relationship with Him by doing a lot of repenting and committing to study the Bible every day and setting aside time to pray and listen.

At the end of stating my case I realized that my relationship with Jesus had become more important to me than the healing so with tears flowing down my face I surrendered my will to His and left the choice up to Him. 

Guess what happened? God has shown me that He is always GOOD even when we suffer. He softened my hardened heart, changed my anger towards Him into love, and turned my hopelessness into hope. I felt such joy and hope even though I was housebound! God has blessed me with wonders and miracles that cannot be counted. He turned my worse nightmare into my greatest blessing. 

I had a born-again experience and although medically, I was almost out of options God took an impossible situation and showed me with Him all things are possible!

In the last 34 years I’ve only found 4 doctors who have ever heard of my condition. There is very little information about it on the Internet. I kept searching for answers in the wrong places. All I needed to do was reach out to Jesus who is the Way Maker, Miracle Worker, Promise Keeper, and the Light in the Darkness. 

Jesus is the same God as in Biblical times. He came to heal the lame, sick, blind, and the lost. He is still performing miracles today – I’m one of them.  

The Bible tells us if you have faith even as small as a mustard seed you can move mountains. It was amazing experiencing the power of the Holy Spirit moved those mountains for me. The Bible tells us if we believe in Jesus Christ we have access to the same power that raised Jesus from the grave. What an incredible way to live life!     

Jesus has transformed my mind, body, heart, and soul. What are you waiting for? Start talking to Jesus and become a new creation. 

If we allow God to use our suffering for His Son’s glory it makes all the difference and it will change our lives. 

I was such a weak person. I also suffered with low self-esteem, overwhelmed with fear, insecurity, and was an expert at mentally beating myself up but in my weaknesses, God’s power has been displayed.